I’ve avoided introspective posts over the past few weeks (months?) for various reasons. It isn’t because I’ve stopped looking or testing myself. I still question myself. My life isn’t peachy. And I haven’t come to any epiphanies.
Life this term has been different.
I have only vague memories of terms before 2B and I’m often caught flat-footed when I’m asked to put a date to events. My time in Waterloo has merged into a series of work and study-terms. On. Off. On. Off. Never quite at-ease. Never quite…done. It’s odd to look back and realize that you’ve lost part of your university life.
My personality has changed significantly. Will you recognize me if you knew me a year before?
Physically? The same.
Mentally? Who knows.
Personality? Elements remain, but, like so many times before, time and events have left their mark.
I’ve become older, more reserved. In some ways…a loner. It isn’t because I dislike people. But I can’t summon the energy to deal with it. Emotional and phsyical malaise…
I’m just so tired all the time. So tired.