Recently a few comments, articles and conversations have floated my way – all centered around effort. Talking, thinking and living through it has changed my perspective and I no longer say “I wish I could do that”.
That statment demeans the person I’m talking to. Learning is simple for few people – many of us have weak spots; areas in which we’re outclassed by our friends and acquaintances. It’s easy for us to see the results right now and not consider the effort put into getting where they are. “I wish I could do that”? As if they were suddenly granted the gift to learn quickly. Maybe two years ago while you were out partying – they weren’t. No. Maybe they were putting in their time and now it’s paying off.
I have a mass of unexpressed thoughts and emotions roiling in my head and it’s hard to articulate them. Perhaps I’m remembering those times when I’ve had the old “You’re better at it than I am” levelled at me and I’m thinking “It didn’t happen by magic; I gave up a lot too”. And I wonder about who I’ve used that glib phrase on. I guess I’m feeling this ill-defined cloud of frustration, not at myself (how surprising!) but…undirected.
Unfortunately, I have no time to explore this. Right now I’m making the bad choice; writing this instead of getting back to 454.